I am still in recovery from my eating disorder (or Ed). I probably always will be. The fact that I can write those two sentences right now is a tell-tale sign showing the world just how far I have come in my recovery. Simply using the word "recovery" still freaks me out because of some irrational thoughts I get from Ed. Thanks Ed.
I am writing about recovery because my recovery plans have changed. As I am sure most of you have heard The Emily Program is going to be making some big (corporate) changes. Nothing good can come out of that. So, I am going to be losing my therapist. And since I am so stubborn, I decided with my trauma therapist that I would not be going to The Emily Program for my Ed treatment anymore. As of right now, I think it is the best decision for me. And since I was laid off in October, it is the cheaper option too.
Instead I will be seeing my trauma therapist for my trauma and Ed treatment. Which don't worry, my trauma therapist has 10+ years of Ed therapy experience from Melrose. And she is fantastic at what she does. I think she is my best shot at continuing my recovery and getting better.
So, now I will be seeing one therapist once a week. My last appointment with The Emily Program therapist is on Jan. 2nd. I don't know why I am so nervous. I am also nervous to make an Ed therapy plan with my trauma therapist too. Which I am assuming we will be doing either this Thursday or next Thursday, not sure. All I know is that I am nervous and excited for this (sort of big) step I am taking. I feel like I am really facing Ed now. It's scary.
More updates to come and please feel free to ask the appropriate questions.
