No ER Trips in Over a Year!

That is right people--I have not been to the emergency room in over A YEAR!!! 

 

This is a new personal record for me!!

 

I was diagnosed in April 2015--since my diagnosis through a year ago I was in the emergency room about 6-7 times--all related to POTs flare-ups.

 

Not having to go to the emergency room has been one of my personal goals, especially the more I realized I was getting closer to being a year without an ER trip.

 

The reason I think I haven't had to go to the ER is because I have actually been taking better care of myself--mentally and physically. I found another medication that works for me, I quit drinking alcohol, I became better at listening to my body and knowing when I need to rest and sleep for the benefit of  giving my body a break.

 

I honestly never thought I would last a year without going to the emergency room. I proved myself wrong.

It became a somewhat normal thing for me while I was attending to college. I mean that is 6-7 visits within a two year period. It was exhausting. And I am a stubborn person--I know there were MANY other times that I knew I should have gone in to the ER but just didn't. I just tried to push through my symptoms--which even took longer for me to get over the flare-up if I would have gone in.

Let's see how long I can go without going to the emergency room...

 

Sudden Positive Changes

Heyo, everybody--followers, mostly family and some friends. Maybe even some strangers--highly unexpected.

 

I have officially decided to stay in St. Paul for various reasons--here are a few half-assed explained reasons. lol.

 

ANXIETY: My anxiety was really high ever since I had decided that I was going to move two states over. Just all the logistics that were involved, the toughness surrounding finding a job, the move itself (11 hour drive w/ kittens), etc. I am feeling better now. I literally told a co-worker  (who knows me pretty well) that I wasn't moving and she was like "I know." I was like what? It is because she knew my anxiety was way too high for me to move.

 

NO JOB: I had the toughest time finding a job in MI. Yet, since I decided not to move (yesterday), I have already found a potential job in downtown MPLS (we will see how this works out but I only have good vibes). I will keep you updated on the job situation.

 

FAMILY/FRIENDS: I knew I was going to miss most of my family and friends if I decided to leave. Even after a great labor day weekend--I am SO glad that I am not moving farther away from them. I will still have my own space away from them--which is nice.

 

ROOMMATE FIGHT: I got into a HUGE fight with the guy that was supposed to be my roommate in MI. He said something's to me--he hurt me, he insulted me, and I was not comfortable with the idea of living with him anymore. And this is me being nice and an adult about it. The second I got that bad feeling in my gut is when I decided that, NOPE, this is not going to work anymore. It was an emotional day yesterday but so much has come out of it.

 

APARTMENT: I may have even found a cheaper place to live in the cities. Those details won't work themselves out for probably another week since my "future" landlord is going on vacay. I will also keep you up-to-date on that.

A Political Post: Discrimination

WARNING: this is the most political I have ever been on this blog. If you can't handle it. Back off. I will swear a lot. So, if your small minds can't handle it. Back off. This is also an emotional topic for me. If you can't handle it. Back off. 

 

I am looking for support NOT criticism. However, I know I can't control anyone.

At first I was going to talk about ageism, but then I realized that discrimination (against me) clearly doesn't stop there. I also have to acknowledge that I do have a tremendous amount of white privilege. I am also disabled, queer, identify as female, and I just turned 22 about a month ago. And that birthday had me thinking a lot about some of the bullshit discrimination that I face, as well as maaaaaaaany of my friends face.

Apparently, since this body and mind have only been alive for 22 years, I don't know anything and don't have any experience. First of all, age has nothing to do with knowledge and experience. Just because my body and mind are a little over two decades old doesn't mean that I haven't experienced life and all its shittiness--and its greatness. I even experience the good that can come from this stupid thing called life. Yes, life is precious. I call it stupid because there are sooooo many things that can go wrong and people take that shit for granted. People, especially people in America, take a lot of things for granted. I have also met some pretty stupid and uneducated forty-year-olds (or older).

However, I should not have to lay out every single life experience just to prove my worth and knowledge. And I won't. I am educated, I work, I have experienced discrimination because of my looks, age, and people assume  that I am not disabled because I "look fine." Fucking idiots. There are people that say I am too young to be sick. Illness doesn't discriminate, like you do. Children can get sick. Adults can get sick. Anybody can get sick. You dumb fucks.

I have the right to talk about being discriminated against by ageists, ableists, sexists, and homophobes. I can't even come out to certain family members because I fear they won't understand who I truly am and who I am meant to be.

I have been traumatized, over and over again. But there are people who are waaaay worse off than I am. Like, the children who have been ripped from their families and put into cages on American soil. Even though, there isn't much I can do for those innocent children, I have friends that have also been through waaaay worse shit than I have and I try to help them out as much as I can. I have friends that have been discriminated against in worse ways than I have and I try to be there for them because we have all got to be there for each other. 

I don't care what color your skin is, what sexual orientation you are, how gay you are, how disabled you are, what God you do or don't believe in, or if you have been through some serious trauma. As long as you treat me with love and respect--I will be there for you.

You need to get to know a person for who they truly are before you can just judge them or put them into a stereotypical category. Try to erase those categories from your mind. It can be difficult but try. I know I try. 

If you are not disabled--you are only temporarily able-bodied.

Women's rights are human rights.

Age is just a number.

LOVE IS LOVE!