"When I Wake Up"

Written on: 15 April 2015

I wake up every morning hoping…

that today will be a better day

               it will be an easier day than yesterday

               it will be a day where I won’t embarrass myself

               I won’t have flare ups

               I won’t have to explain myself

               they will understand

               that my invisible illness is not visible

                              or that it is

                              so they will understand

                              what I am going through

Oh, only if they understood

               the pain

               the embarrassment

               the struggle

               the weakness

               the numbness

               the loneliness

When I finally get through the day

I go to bed hoping…

               That tomorrow will be better

               That I did everything I was supposed to

               That I put up a good fight

               That I was strong enough

               And that tomorrow I will be strong enough…