I Need vs. I Want

I never realized how different "I want" versus "I need" is until I got to college. I am starting to "grow up" and it is terrifying. I feel a little lost and I am leaning on my mom way more than I used to. She is such a great support in my life. I am so incredibly lucky to have a mother like her.

One of the most important things that I learned is that I need to do certain things just to be able to do the things that I want to do. I need to have an education so that I can have a career to pay for things that I need to live and to pay for things that I want to have or want to do in my life. I need to go to class, I need to get a job, then I need to go to work. That way I can do certain things. I need to go grocery shopping so I can eat. I need to pay my bills so I can have an apartment and have electricity. I need to pick up my medication so I can go to school and have a job.

The thing is, people tell you how hard it is but they never actually make you truly understand how difficult it can be. You don't know that until you experience it. I am full on experiencing it and it sucks. I understand why some adults drink so much and do drugs. It is because life can be hell if you mess it up. And it doesn't take much to fuck it up. But those things need to happen. I have had and am in rough patches but I know and am confident that it will get better. I am just a very broke college girl. It will be way better once I graduate. That is another plus to graduating early, not only do I save money and time but I will be working for a law firm in about a year. Like, a really job! Not a job to just survive on but a career to live off of and enjoy. That will be the greatest reward from going to school!

Now, that I am learning all of these "life lessons" while I am in college is certainly going to actually help me while I am out of college trying to live my life to the fullest. So, thanks to everyone that has helped me get to this point. And I can't wait to thank you when I graduate college!