Some days...I feel like a burden

Some days, like today, I forget how bad and debilitating my symptoms can really get. I have had some fairly good days this past month, until today. I was sort of brain foggy all day and just mentally out of it. I went to a football game. At half-time, I went to the bathroom and got really dizzy. And then my night just escalated. By the time I get home. I am so dizzy and weak. It is hard for me to even stand up because it feels like my legs are going to give out. My whole body is shaky because my nervous system is freaking out. I can't relax and when I have to get up to go to the bathroom or get water, my heart freaks out and races and then by the time I sit back down again I feel even worse. This is a bad day. I will get bad days. But on the good ones it is ok to forget about those days because it will drive you crazy if all you do is remember how terrible you felt. And now I am thinking, will I ever fall asleep and how will I feel tomorrow?? Also, can I make it to the bathroom and back again? Maybe with a few stops on the way. And by stops I mean sitting down. The worst part is I feel like a huge burden. No matter how much they love me. I will always feel like a burden.