It's OK To Feel Angry

Written in Feb. 2017:

I can't find the words to express how pissed I am feeling.

Let me try to explain...I thought I was going to have a good semester. I didn't expect a perfect one but I thought I was going to be happy. This is my last semester! But NOOOOO! Shelby doesn't deserve a good semester. Instead, trauma follows Shelby. Instead, Shelby ends up in the ER. Instead, Shelby gets dumped by her boyfriend. Instead, Shelby gets sexually harassed at a coffee shop. Instead, Shelby's semester isn't good. In fact, Shelby's semester sucks.

I am angry at my WORLD. I have learned that it is OK to feel anger. It is a natural emotion, one that everyone feels at some point in their life. Anger usually develops from other emotions and feelings. Those others are usually a lot worse than anger. Shame, for example. Shame may not seem worse to you but shame for me has made me look far down on myself, along with many other negative attributes.

However, I am lucky to have people in my life to help me understand these frustrations. They have helped me understand my faith. They have helped me understand why trauma seems to follow me. Life's irony, mostly. And my weaknesses.

P.S. This probably won't make any sense. I just needed to vent a little. I just needed to publish a post with me venting. UGH...