Job: I can’t believe I have been working at my job for over three months. Those months have truly gone by fast. I enjoy my job. I have been learning a lot about bankruptcy court, conciliation court, and reality law among other things. My job this summer has been going really slow. I have downtime to read books and write in my memoir or short stories. I do enjoy the downtime but I also wish I would have more work to do. And because of my illnesses I have already used all of my paid days off. So, if I miss parts of any days for the next six months I won’t get paid for them….stupid illness and doctor's appointments. That is a big change from school. I could easily miss class for an appointment and not have to worry greatly about the effects it would have. Now that is all I do. I love my boss! We get along very well. But I don’t get along with a co-worker of mine. And I don’t know why, I think she is just extremely bitchy towards me. I am not sure if it is because I am so young or she thinks I am stupid or what. It is just really annoying to have to deal with her--especially when I did nothing wrong.
Apartment: I continue to fall in love with my apartment. It is the perfect size for me and my two adorable kittens. I get along greatly with my landlord and neighbor. We hang out sometimes and eat late suppers, watch movies and drink and talk about life. It is really nice. I got extremely lucky to have such great people to live near. Right now my best friend has been couch surfing at my place for the last two weeks and she plans to stay with me until her parents get settled into their new home in the cities. It has been nice to live with a best friend. I have never experienced that before. But it can get a little crowded with the two of us and my kittens.
POTs: I have been having a lot more flare-ups lately but they are finally starting to simmer down a little bit. I have been passing out more frequently. I have been having a lot more pain. I am finally on pain medication that helps with that. My energy level has been low and my fatigue level has been high. I have been getting a lot of sleep and that still doesn’t help, really. I usually go to bed before ten now. Sometimes I go to bed right when I get home from work if I am so exhausted.
Mental Illnesses: My depression and PTSD have not been doing great this summer. They both actually got really bad, the worse I have ever felt mentally and emotionally. So, that has been difficult. However, I did start seeing a trauma therapist once a week and she has been so helpful. I think this is all I am willing to share about this, right now.
School: Just when I am done with undergrad everyone is now asking me about law school and when I decide to go. I am not sure honestly. I just tell people “within the next five years.” That usually shuts them up. I mean I just got out of undergrad, give me a fucking break. I am exhausted and have a lot going on. I don’t even want to think about law school right now. And I am young, so I have plenty of time. Today, Hamline’s Undergrad classes started and it I really odd for me because I am just sitting at work typing this up thinking about how I miss campus and the professors and my friends. I can’t stop thinking about the disability organization that I started and how I am worried about how they will do this year without me. I keep reaching out to my friends who are going to run it and I tell them that I live close by and have time to help them if they need it.
Volunteering: I have volunteered my time and energy at an organization called Saving Grace. They are hosting a huge convention in St. Paul on October 27 to promote education and awareness for domestic violence and sexual assault. I have been helping market for the event and I will be working at the event when the time comes.
Other than those things I have had a lot of friend and family drama but that’s not something I am going to get into on my blog because that would just create more drama. And I am not ready to disclose with everyone what my new diagnosis is.
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